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 "Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?"

(Reflection from Mulan)

That song used to get to me so bad.  I would cry every time I heard it.  I was an early bloomer as a child and all my underdeveloped "friends" tormented me daily, calling me fat and ugly. I can remember one day we were on a field trip to a big university near me. There was a larger girl that walked by us on her way to class and several of my classmates started snickering and pointed at her then said to me "That'll be you when you grow up" and continued to laugh about it the rest of the day. 

The thing is, I wasn't overweight at all (and incidently neither was that girl they made fun of), but for so many years I carried that extra weight with me. I'd look in the mirror and just see this huge, ugly, fat monster. I just wanted to be someone that people could love and I really thought it was impossible.  I never realized how important it was to learn to love myself first, even with all my flaws. Now that I do.. its made all the difference and no one will ever make me feel less again.   

Stuff I'm wearing... 

WINGS-ER0520-HAIR @ Level event

!TLB - Norma Top @ Vintage Fair

toksik - Tumble Midi Skirt 

+Psycho Barbie+ [Moon Kitty Earrings - Black]

{C&C} Bast Necklace

Taken using Lippy pose on the Girls Li-Z platform at Sunny's Photo Studio



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